Friday, April 1, 2011

Changes in April

"Growth is a painful process."

It's the first day of April. While everyone is busy making plans for the whole month and some others are trying to fool around because it's April Fool's day, I on the other hand, contemplated. What changes do I want to take place this month? Our summer vacation officially starts today. And I'm supposed to run around and jump and scream "YAY!" But instead of doing so, I decided to think things over before I could run around and jump and scream "YAY!"... 

I really want to elaborate on that but if you know me, I'm not good with words. My mind is focused on something right now which makes it harder for me to figure out what I have been meaning to tell you. 

Change is all I want. Perhaps, the whole process could hurt but what more can I not endure? Growing, I'd say is what I am going through right now. And it's for the nth time, so it's not new. This could mean changes in habits, hobbies, plans for the future, career, personal, etc. I think it is quite normal... What I don't understand is why am I bothered as much as I am excited? Why is it painful? Why can't I let it out? 

Sorry. I sound like ranting over something again. But don't get me wrong, please. I'm just trying to vent. This blog is my breathing space. I keep telling myself, what's with the blues? It's going to be my birthday soon. And yeah! That reminds me of something. I promised myself that I will buy a new sewing machine for my birthday and I haven't saved a penny yet. >.< 

Anyway, I really hope that these changes would not affect my life negatively. I have to remind myself over again...

Happiness is a choice! And I'd stay happy whether I change or not. xD


  1. I think it's everybody's fear. Aging, I mean. You're not alone. Remember there are some who haven't got any chance to be born in this world.

    I love you, Mommy! <3

  2. birthday birthday birthday... food food fooooooooooood!!!!!!!

  3. @ Jaja
    nyuuu~ T___T thank you! ♥

  4. @ Meki
    Thank you, dearest Meki! ♥ I want foood! The question is, who will cook for me? :3


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