Light and Hope and more Love from me...

Lighting a candle in every occasion is a common practice in our family. Even those moments when I feel down or alone, I light one candle and watch its glow, say my prayers and I feel peaceful. There is something spiritual about it that I could not explain. 

During the New Year's Eve, me and my cousin decided to light our prosperity candles at the same time and see what will happen. It  is believed that the candle that melts the quickest will signify the most bountiful blessings that you will have. Prosperity candles consist of 7 different colored candles, each signifies something. 

Green - Wealth

Red - Love

Pink - Health

Yellow - Harmony

Blue - Peace

Peach -Long Life

White - Purity

My candles are in the rectangular plate, while the round one is my cousin's.

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We almost didn't want to go out and watch the fireworks display because we wanted to see what will happen to the candles and make sure that it won't cause any accident. We must be very cautious, you know. We were very curious on which one would melt the quickest. And to our surprise, most of my candles have melted down, except for the GREEN one. While hers, the RED one. Now, can you imagine the look on our faces? Hahaha :D

See?

I admit, it made me kinda upset to see my green candle not being able to melt faster than the others. 2011 was a tough year for me and hubby. But I don't want to ruin my New Year just because I saw something like that. As for my cousin, she kept asking why her love candle didn't burn out immediately. She was having a shaky relationship with her husband at this time, so I can't blame her. Then again, I can only hope for the best. That's all I can do. Because I guess, every new year's message is hope. 

And maybe it is the reason why I wore this necklace... :D

We tried to move on and not missed the fireworks. The table awaited us too... We really had a bountiful feast. Something to be grateful for, right? 

And yes, I may sound weird but I will try these candles again on my birthday. It was fun!~ Or maybe I should do this again on the eve of the Chinese New Year. ^_^ Yes, we celebrate that too because my family is of Chinese lineage. And that's another story... 

For 2012 and for my readers...

Maybe this is the first time I am sharing a part of my personal life. In this photo is me and my 11 year old daughter. She's my future fashionista, I guess... ^_^ Though, not showing much in this photo but in time, you'll see. 

Goofy-faced me >_< 

Believe it or not, I was wearing her creepers. Pffft!~ 

There might be some changes on this blog and in me this year. Major changes. LOL~ I do that all the time. >_<  I am in the process of healing/recovering and forgetting all the sh*t I've experienced from my past stalkers. I hope, I'd be fine soon. ♥

Goodbye 2011

In a few hours, we will say goodbye to the year 2011. I'm freaking excited!~ 

I prepared a note for you, 2011. Here's how it goes:

Dear 2011,

When you came, I somehow felt that you'd give me a different experience. My perspective changed and I knew then that you would make me a stronger person. AND, you didn't fail. You took me to roller coaster ride. You introduced me to new people. Some were productive, some were not, some were positive and again, some were not. Now, I call most of them my friends - although some seemed like they were just passing through. Still, I am grateful for every person who came in and out of my life. I learned from all of them. 

One of the best thing I am grateful of is the time when I met my late father's family. Oh, they were really nice people!~ They welcomed me and my family with open arms and warm hearts. Those moments that made me asked, why only now? But the heavens have its own reasons why, so I stopped searching for answers. What matters most is that we have real connections now and it's never too late to start over. 

On most part, you were stingy. And you like seeing me suffer. The financial difficulties were a little too much to bear. But because we have mouths to feed, I can't just stop and frown and cry. Still, I am grateful because you taught me that I should learn to find ways to make my life, ours, rather, easier. Don't worry, 2011. I will be lazy no more and I will work well with 2012. That's a promise.~ 

Ugh! This note is getting longer, I'd rather stop now. I know I won't be seeing you again, so let me give you a hug. *hugzztight* Thank you soooo much!~ Thank you for all the wonderful memories, people and most of all, the lessons you have taught me. I will carry on and meet your sibling 2012 with arms wide open. I just hope he will like me and treat me nicely. Bye. ♥

Love, 

Me :D

Happy New Year to everyone!!!~ Be safe!

I'll see you all soon, after all the fuss! *mmmuah!~* ♥

What I'd like to do

Two more days and it's Christmas. Then, a few more days before the year would end. I don't know what to say or what to wish for. As of this moment, what I want to do is to reflect. 

2011 may not be as good as the passed years of my life but like I always say, I cannot thank the universe or God for giving me only the BEST things. I want to appreciate those few shaky moments of my life. Those few moments when I felt down and I thought then was not going to end. Those times that I thought that I would not surpassed. I am saying FEW because I refuse to label things or events as BAD or GOOD. All of them happened for a reason. They are the results of my actions. Though, there are things or events that I think that are out of and beyond my control. 

Yes, I am grateful for every bit of these things in my life. When bad things happen, I learn. When good things happen, I feel happy. There's really nothing to frown about, right? Right. :D 

As for Lolita, I might not be as active like I used to be. I will still make some nice clothes but I wouldn't be wearing them as often as I did this year. I need to revamp my closet. Hmmm... It sounds like I have to sell some stuffs to make room for new ones. What's with the sudden change of mind? Oh, well... You may want to read again my last entry. This could be temporary or maybe not. I don't know and I am not sure yet. Growing old? You can always say that, the hell I care. ^_^ HAHAHAHA 

As for this blog, of course things will stay as it is. I will still share things that I feel like sharing, Lolita or Non-Lolita. But I guess I would focus more on crafting (I hope) ^_^ and more on the real stuffs that I do. I just hope that you would still be there to read me. ♥

OH~ By the way, I want to share this here...
The ordinary me.
Taken after one of my son's performances on stage with his group. Such a proud mom I am. ^_^

Sorry, I have to cover my face. *hurp*derp*

OUTFIT:

All of them were thrifted except for the tights. xDDD

Just some lucky find... :D

Perhaps, ^THIS will be something that I want to do more often on this blog. Oh, please bear with me for I might not be as good when it comes to this. I love, love, love thrift shopping! It's like treasure hunting and it is very exciting!~  Maybe on my posts to come, I will share more nice stuffs that I got from the thrift stores. I still got a load of things that I need to write about. All I need is more time. :D 

I guess, that would be all for now. I've got to get a power nap. Tomorrow, the preparation for the Christmas feast will start. I'll see you around!~  ♥

Holiday Break

What an awful feeling! It's holiday season and yet my pc is currently down and now I'm borrowing my sister's laptop... Can't blog, can't post photos and can't socialize! This is really unbearable for me! :(( I have to make a lot of catching up when it's fixed...

Meanwhile, my mother is arriving today. And that's what has kept all of us busy and frantic. 

We're all of course happy and excited for she will be spending New Year with us! Yay! 

I'll be seeing you all very soon with my updates and photos.

Happy Holidays to Everyone! Please try to have a safe one! :))