What I'd like to do

Two more days and it's Christmas. Then, a few more days before the year would end. I don't know what to say or what to wish for. As of this moment, what I want to do is to reflect. 

2011 may not be as good as the passed years of my life but like I always say, I cannot thank the universe or God for giving me only the BEST things. I want to appreciate those few shaky moments of my life. Those few moments when I felt down and I thought then was not going to end. Those times that I thought that I would not surpassed. I am saying FEW because I refuse to label things or events as BAD or GOOD. All of them happened for a reason. They are the results of my actions. Though, there are things or events that I think that are out of and beyond my control. 

Yes, I am grateful for every bit of these things in my life. When bad things happen, I learn. When good things happen, I feel happy. There's really nothing to frown about, right? Right. :D 

As for Lolita, I might not be as active like I used to be. I will still make some nice clothes but I wouldn't be wearing them as often as I did this year. I need to revamp my closet. Hmmm... It sounds like I have to sell some stuffs to make room for new ones. What's with the sudden change of mind? Oh, well... You may want to read again my last entry. This could be temporary or maybe not. I don't know and I am not sure yet. Growing old? You can always say that, the hell I care. ^_^ HAHAHAHA 

As for this blog, of course things will stay as it is. I will still share things that I feel like sharing, Lolita or Non-Lolita. But I guess I would focus more on crafting (I hope) ^_^ and more on the real stuffs that I do. I just hope that you would still be there to read me. ♥

OH~ By the way, I want to share this here...
The ordinary me.
Taken after one of my son's performances on stage with his group. Such a proud mom I am. ^_^

Sorry, I have to cover my face. *hurp*derp*

OUTFIT:

All of them were thrifted except for the tights. xDDD

Just some lucky find... :D

Perhaps, ^THIS will be something that I want to do more often on this blog. Oh, please bear with me for I might not be as good when it comes to this. I love, love, love thrift shopping! It's like treasure hunting and it is very exciting!~  Maybe on my posts to come, I will share more nice stuffs that I got from the thrift stores. I still got a load of things that I need to write about. All I need is more time. :D 

I guess, that would be all for now. I've got to get a power nap. Tomorrow, the preparation for the Christmas feast will start. I'll see you around!~  ♥

What's this?

This (refer to the photo below) keeps appearing on my blogger dashboard!

And each time I try to click it, this (again, refer to the photo below) site shows up!

*eyerolls* What is this? What is happening? Is it just me who's having this kind of problem? I did unfollow the site but these still show up! GOSH! What is wrong with blogger?!

Breathe

I need it right away... I need space and air... I need my time alone and contemplate. 

As the days pass, I cannot see things the way I see it before. And it's not just Lolita... I'm talking about most things in my life. Like a gadget, perhaps I need an upgrade. OR, would it make things easier to bear if I'll downgrade? Whichever, I don't have the energy to think and to keep up with many things and many people. Maybe, I'm making things complicated. But you see, I've been on Earth for like three decades and somehow I know my intuitions are telling me something. Something that I should consider re-thinking.

 OH MAN! I need an inspiration!

Bad Video Card

I am dying to post our Earth Hour photos! But my monitor isn't working fine. I think it's the video card again! I've got to bring my tower to the tech soon, so it can get fixed!

Aaaaaaaaaaargh!

A lot of things need fixing these days... 


I'll catch up later...

New inspiration - RUMORS!

I have been wanting to write but whenever I try, I end up staring blankly on my monitor and then cancelling my draft. Good thing I was able to write for EFL earlier. It was tough. I wanted to write down all the things that's been running through my thoughts. But I can't. I kept telling myself, "You are old enough for that. Don't give them the satisfaction that they wanted. Keep your cool. Etc..." From the start, I have heard of rumors that EFL is being bashed and ridiculed by some people who are so intrigued or more so, jealous(?). Which at first, really made me sick. Unfortunately, I can't bash them back because I am often reminded of my Mom's teachings. If you can't say anything good, just keep your mouth shut. And in this case, I can't promise to sugar coat every word that I want to say. So, I'd rather stay calm and reverse the effects of the rumors to me. Instead of saying not so nice things to them, I managed to finished a post. It may not directly hit them but I can say that if one is intellectual enough, they'd read between the lines and catch the hidden meaning of my words.

Anyway, those are just words... I cannot be affected of such cruelty. I am resilient, I know that. And I have to be. I chose this, so I'll have to deal with it's consequences.

For the Nth time, I want to remind you. The more bricks you throw upon us, the more blessing we get. Keep them coming and I'd be glad to accept them. Thank you very much! ♥

Loads ands loads ofs works!

Yes! I indeed have a lot of work to finish! But I am aching to blog!

I have been wanting to write but couldn't find the time. No! Not the time, really. The peace. The silence. The moment alone. Those were what I'm missing. With so many people around and so many things to accomplish, how could I ever find the peace to write? ugh! There were many a  time when I tried to start typing what's on my mind, an event I've recently attended or a new dress I was able to finish sewing or, or, a good thrift find... But I always find myself staring blankly on a blank space in my monitor. And right now, right at this very moment, I am stuck with tons of paper works that is due first working day next week. WTF?!

Even my shop has been in hiatus for I don't remember for how long. My knitting and crochet projects are still sitting on my working table, undone. Some of the beaded jewelry I have started making needs immediate attention. RANT! RANT! RANT!

Gaaaawd! Please?! I'm aching to blog! Just this once!

OK! 

I'm hoping that you'll bear with me in the coming days. I'll try to squeeze in blogging in my very tight schedule. I will share many stories, photos, crafts and whatever things. That's my New Year's Resolution, btw.. To become a better blogger. :)
(That part put a smile on my face! Tee-hee! ^_^)

Cosplay? errrrr...

For the Nth time, I'm saying this: 

I don't do cosplay. 

I can't pull it off. Even if I could, I wouldn't, for Heaven's sake! I go to cons in Lolita, that's because we have a booth and we sell Lolita thingies... And that's it! I can be in Lolita any day, everyday if I really want to! Is that ok? So please stop asking me the most irritating question of all time, "You're from what Anime again? Who are you trying to portray?" RRRRRR! @_@

Late weekend report

yay! :))

I finally got my keyboard fixed! Now I can post and post and post! :)

So, how was your weekend? I've had a very busy one. Last Saturday, my friend, Jaja, invited me to join her in a convention in Manila. It was attended by so many students and anime/cosplay enthusiast. It was a lot of fun! :) 

I used to feel uncomfortable going to events like these. People would often ask you, "Excuse me? You're a character of what Anime?" Gaaaah! And I always thought, if Lolita is not cosplay, then why Lolitas go to cons? But where else would they go? I mean, people here in my place doesn't seem to appreciate Lolita. If people see you walking around wearing a frilly dress and bows in your head, they would most likely tease, humiliate, or call you names. That's the sad truth! And that's why some girls here who have just started trying Lolita would suddenly change their minds. They can't get used to ugly things like that. Err... I mean, who would? Right? Luckily, some managed to survive. I also want to survive! So, what the heck?! :)) And with this in mind, I can't help but to get excited - I can't wait for our Forum's 1st Anniversary Meet! Exclusively for Lolitas! ^_^

So much for the rant... ^_^ Anyway, here are some photos I took and some are grabbed from Jaja. :))

Girls flocked around Jaja's table :)

here's mine... :)

and then there's me! knitting while these cute girls looking around my space

and of course, Jaja. I took this photo! yay! :)

 The event was held in Intramuros, a great, old and very lovely place! I wish we could have a shoot there with my Lolita friends - SOON! :)

How about you? Did you have a busy weekend? :))

gaaah!

i'm having a hard time creating my posts! my keyboard is busted!

i'm using the on-screen one...

booo!

meanwhile, i have to get my butt moving so i can continue making new pillbox hats & other stuffs. here are some pics:

i made some eco bags for my pillbox hats

synthetic leather*

head dress

i crocheted the bow! :)

some chokers

so, i guess, i shall see you when i'm done and when i get a new keyboard!

(^_^)v